life.

i don't know if i'm ready. for all the change, the uncertainty...in six weeks from now, my life as i know it - and have known it for all my life - will never be the same. never again will i enjoy four months of summer, to love the freedom in may, and then long for academic rigidity in august. spetember will just become another month, not holding any particular significance, no longer defining new beginnings of a fresh school year. the leaves will start turning, the wind will blow cooler, but other than the seasons, nothing will change. am i ready? on the outside, i loudly express my desire to be free from the bondage of academia, to be just another adult working the 9 to 5, getting down to routine, embracing a new phase of life. but secretly (not anymore), deep down inside, i think to myself - am i ready for this? well, regardless of whether i am ready or not, the reality is, it's coming. before i blink twice, i expect to be thrown out of the academic world onto the streets of life, still wet behind the ears trying to find my own way. i can take comfort knowing that to the left, right, in front and behind me, are familiar faces.